As I really embrace the twilight of my twenties, I have come to understand and accept a few things for what they are. First of all, change is inevitable and as uncomfortable and painful as it may seem, you will eventually get used to it. Better to embrace the change and let it happen. Friends will come and go, love will blossom and die, jobs will come and go and more importantly that youthful smirk you are so proud of will fade eventually. The only thing that will remain constant in your life is CHANGE.
Easier said than done embracing change. We are human and looking back in time, change is something we have struggled to come to terms with. The transition from stone age to iron age, white superiority to equal rights and more recently “Thin Oprah to Fat Oprah”…
I have been faced with a lot of change in my life and yes I am finding it quite difficult to accept and embrace the change. Some days are better than others but the beautiful struggle is ongoing. I am continuing with my journey and doing the very best to challenge myself at every step of the way. Learning to stay humble, to stay true to myself, to be patient and have a pure heart. A pure heart makes for a healthy conscience and a healthy conscience gives birth to strong values. Strong values are the back bone of difficult decision making processes.
Please find below an offering from the talented Philadelphia native, Miss Jill Scott. “Lord Hear my Call”
Here I am again asking questions,
Waiting to be moved.
I am so unsure of my perception,
What I thought I knew I don’t seem to
Where is the turn so I can get back to what I believe in?
Back to the old me and.
God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please, please, please.
I am such a fool
How did I get here?
Played by all the rules
Then they changed
I am but a child to your vision
Standing in the cold and the rain
Lost here in the dark
I can’t see my foot to take a step,
What is happening?
Oh, this hurts so bad. I can hardly breathe.
I just want to leave so…
I was asked a question the other day that I couldn’t answer. After careful examination, I realised that the answer to that question marked the area of focus for my personal journey. The question was, “When was the last time you were genuinely happy?” … I am running a lot, praying a lot and generally trying to ask myself difficult questions about my life. I will sometimes fall short, I may even breakdown sometimes but I will not deny the natural event that is change from happening. The Better Man Project , Living and Learning.
Over N’ Out.